I wish everyday was Sunday! 1- I don't have to exercise. YAY! 2-I am more hopeful about life on Sunday. I know that it is because the spirit it stronger on Sundays. I do my best the rest of the week, but it just doesn't compare. I am sure it is also because my focus switches from me to my YW and the things I need to do for them. Maybe I should take a note from that and focus more on other people.
I am feeling somewhat better today about life and losing weight. Somehow I need to get to the point that I am ok with where I am, so that I don't stress so much about where I want to be. If I am trying my best, than that is good enough. There will always be more I can do, but I can only do so much, and that is ok.
It is too bad that we can't have another Sunday in the middle of the week. It is usually around Wed. that my positive thoughts are replaced by the more negative thoughts. It doesn't help that Wed. is weigh in day. This week I am going to make a concerted effort to replace the negative thoughts with positive thoughts. One thought at a time.
Anyway, I just love Sundays. I always have.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Friday, May 1, 2009
I am still trying
I really did not plan to leave the blog so tired, but such is life.
Have you ever felt like no matter how hard you work, you can't seem to shake off the mud that is holding you, stuck in one place? This is how I feel about this whole weight loss process. Some people say they don't like working out on a treadmill because it feels like they aren't going anywhere. I really am not getting anywhere. (I still love having my treadmill). I have been working out for 5 months now and instead of losing any weight I have gained 5 pounds.
I have been working so hard and I am so frustrated. I know there are more ways to improve with my eating, but I really was hoping exercise would at least help in losing weight. I have established the habit of daily exercise, but I want results. I also know I have improved in other areas like endurance and such, but right now it is hard to focus on those things. I am tired of living my life like this. I want to feel strong and beautiful and healthy.
I started training to run a 10K because I needed something else to focus on instead of focusing on my lack of weight loss. I am still training, but it is very difficult. The race is on July 4th and Seth is doing it with me. I am excited to do it because than I can't say it is impossible.
When I was pregnant with Savannah I was diagnosed as hypothyroid, low thyroid production. Which means my body does not make enough thyroid hormone to run the metabolism of the body. Symptoms include weight gain, low energy, dry skin, etc. I have been taking Synthroid ever since. According to the doctors, with the current level of meds, I am within the normal range now. I can't help but wonder if something more needs to be done because I really should be losing weight. But at the same time I know that I am not eating perfectly. It is really hard to be confident enough in my efforts to really push a doctor into doing more to help the problem.
For some strange reason, even without results, I have continued to exercise daily. Of course I have missed days here and there, but I have been really good at exercising. That is actually really hard to say (blog) out loud. For that I am grateful. I don't know how, but the habit is there. It is still not easy, but it is there. Someday the results will come, I hope.
Have you ever felt like no matter how hard you work, you can't seem to shake off the mud that is holding you, stuck in one place? This is how I feel about this whole weight loss process. Some people say they don't like working out on a treadmill because it feels like they aren't going anywhere. I really am not getting anywhere. (I still love having my treadmill). I have been working out for 5 months now and instead of losing any weight I have gained 5 pounds.
Not Fair
I have been working so hard and I am so frustrated. I know there are more ways to improve with my eating, but I really was hoping exercise would at least help in losing weight. I have established the habit of daily exercise, but I want results. I also know I have improved in other areas like endurance and such, but right now it is hard to focus on those things. I am tired of living my life like this. I want to feel strong and beautiful and healthy.
I started training to run a 10K because I needed something else to focus on instead of focusing on my lack of weight loss. I am still training, but it is very difficult. The race is on July 4th and Seth is doing it with me. I am excited to do it because than I can't say it is impossible.
When I was pregnant with Savannah I was diagnosed as hypothyroid, low thyroid production. Which means my body does not make enough thyroid hormone to run the metabolism of the body. Symptoms include weight gain, low energy, dry skin, etc. I have been taking Synthroid ever since. According to the doctors, with the current level of meds, I am within the normal range now. I can't help but wonder if something more needs to be done because I really should be losing weight. But at the same time I know that I am not eating perfectly. It is really hard to be confident enough in my efforts to really push a doctor into doing more to help the problem.
For some strange reason, even without results, I have continued to exercise daily. Of course I have missed days here and there, but I have been really good at exercising. That is actually really hard to say (blog) out loud. For that I am grateful. I don't know how, but the habit is there. It is still not easy, but it is there. Someday the results will come, I hope.
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